today totally suck.although i dont need to go to school.

PIANO EXAM.i was practising.then piano lesson.my teacher told me to RELAX so many times.i started to be nervous at 9am when my exam is 4.43pm. i was nervous from ytd onwards.I AM A FREAK. then i practise.then my mum came back. after we were ready to leave.i sat on the sofa and wait for my dad to come back.

I SLEPT LA.not for 5 minutes. is like 30 minutes.DONT KNOW WHY SO TIRED.then people came asking me what time i going rosyth.i thought about it.i started to tear la.i was SO looking forward to it.but in the end.I CANT GO.what's the problem la.i heard that many people went can.I FEEL EVEN WORSE.then my dad came.we were early.so my mum brought me to the coffeeshop opp the place.dad left.feeling very down.didnt want to talk.on the car like that alr.I REJECTED CHOCOLATE.like i would NEVER do that ever again.then left coffeeshop.went to the place.sign up.then TREMBLING STARTS.i started feeling very nervous.HANDS BECAME COLD.then i became blurblur.then the girl before me.came out. i was like O.O why you come out. then playplayplay. WRONGWRONGWRONG. but i HEART THE EXAMMINER. she was so NICE can.she see i am nervous. she told me. SLOWLY. so nice la. then there is a stage.she came down and walked up with me. before i go she wish me HAVE THE REAT OF THE DAY HAPPY. something like that.so sweet.I LOVE HER.
then after thta went to si ma lu and bugis with my mum.bought fanweiqi's album.then went to eat dinner.had roasted duck/pork and har siew.sort of acted strong in front of my parents.

I BECAME SO EMO AFTER I CAME BACK.i am crying in front of the computer la.THANKYOU FOR ALL THE ENCOURAGEMETS.I LOVE YOU ALL.THANK YOU FOR ALL THE 'GOOD LUCK' MESSAGES.I LOVE YOU ALL.ALL.


I WILL STAND UP STRONG AGAIN.I WILL.I BELIEVE IN MYSELF.but now i really need a shoulder.
finallyfoundyou
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